Less than 8 hours to live - somebody, pease help me =..(

[Aroura]

Its 9:30am.... Lily is going to the vets at 5pm. I don't know if I can do this :cry:
I'm too upset to do anything, my poor baby, all she ever wanted to do in life is to please me, and now I'm taking hers away :cry: :cry: :cry:
All the words in the world can't explain how upset I am right now. Those who've been through this before - how did you cope? How did you get yourself up out of bed that day and off to the vets? I don't mean to upset anyone, but I feel like crawling into a hole and dying :cry:

[courtnek]

all love to you Aurora. No it is not easy. I have had to do it a number of times. I only had one I had to put down due to aggression, but even due to disease or old age it still hurts.

Just know in your heart that you are doing what is right for Lily. Putting Alex down was the hardest....4 years old, best dog in the world, and ill with a disease that couldnt be cured. Try your best to remember all the good things about Lily. Know that she will always be with you in spirit, and you will remember her with love. Sometimes we have no control over what happens to our dogs, but we all know what we need to do to make it right.

My heart goes out to you and Lily. I will light a candle for her and for you.
You will be ok, it just takes some time...


:cry:

[marion]

Oh Aroura I'm so sorry, :cry: there are no words I can say to help you through this. :( We are all here for you when you need us.

I've had to have a beloved pet PTS but not under your circumstances. :( That was bad enough but what you're going through is much worse. :cry:

I can only send you my love and sympathy and to say enjoy your last hours with Lily to the full.

I am truly sorry you're having to go through this. :(

Will be thinking of you and Lily. :buzi: Hugs and kisses to you both. :buzi:

[Aroura]

I cried myself to sleep last night, and woke up crying this morning. Josh has been great, I don't know what I'd do without him. We are burying her tonight at Josh's mums house out of town. Its too cold to plant a tree now, but as soon as spring comes around I'm going to get a nice Japanese Maple or something to put ontop of her.

I've had alot of pets come and go over the years, but of all of them Lily has been the most precious to me. She was the one who would give her life for me, as I would for her. At obedience she would always remain so focused on me, as if the rest of the world didn't exist.

She's such a clever dog, I've got so many fond memories of her. She's always made me have a laugh when I'm feeling down, like the time I looked out the window to see her walking around on hind legs, picking ripe apricots from the apricot tree. Or the time she broke into the veggie patch only to steal 3 ripe tomatos of the bush and place them neatly in her bowl next to the back door, waiting for someone to see how clever she was.

I'm going to miss her so much, no more snoring and snorting to listen to, no more whining to go out at 6:30 in the morning, no more cuddles, big sloppy kisses, no more feeling that I am the single most important thing in the world :cry:

This is all too upsetting to me, why Lily? Why did she have to be born with that little voice in her head telling her she must kill everything? Why not some other dog? Some one who doesn't even care? Why my beautiful girl? What did she do to deserve this? :cry: :cry: :cry:

[izzy]

Aurora, i'll be thinking of you an Lily, i've never been in that situation but i imagine it must be horrible, so all i can say is try to make Lily know that you love her and what you're doing is for her good.

I send hugs for you and Lily, i gotta say you are an amaze dog owner. :cry:

[Aroura]

courtnek napisał(a):

My heart goes out to you and Lily. I will light a candle for her and for you.

That means alot, thank you :cry:

[Sharpeigirl]

I know the pain & hurt your feeling aroura, I went through this with Sassy. And it still hurts me. But I knew it was for the best, she wasn't going to hurt anymore Or hurt anyone. She gave me what she had, and more. I took her through her battles, and each one got a little harder for her. Till things finally snapped in her head. My Prayers & thoughts are with you, and Sassy is waiting at the Bridge for Lilly :angel: :angel:

[Guest Anonymous]

Oh gosh, I wish I wasn't reading this too late... What I did to help was the day I had to bring Hazel, I wrote her a poem:

Little Soul,

Time is too short,
Life is too small.
When all these feelings I had to sort,
You would never let me fall.
On this day the angel

[Aroura]

Thank you all so much for your kind words. I wish I could say something more, but I'm too upset. Less than two hours to spend with my honey now and my head hurts and my eyes are stinging. I don't want her to go, I don't want to have to this, not to my angel :cry:

Hazel, that was a really great poem, it has made me cry even more. I wish there was something I could do to change things, make her friendly so I don't have to worry about her. There's nothing I can do though, and I'm so upset. I know its the right thing to do, but the thought that I will never wake up to her again, or be able to laugh at her or play with her, or be proud of her acheivements, it just seems like such a waste, we've been through so much together. Now its over. Just a feeling of emptyness.

I will miss her more than anything :cry:

[bk_blue]

Thinking of you now Jeanne... I hope you give Lily a big kiss from me and BK, and one from me too :angel:

[StarFox]

I'm so so sorry. *hugs* Just remember that she will always be with you in spirit no matter what.

[mouseatthebusstop]

I am so sorry- (((((((big hug))))))) for you. I hope you stayed srong enough to go though with it- I will keep you in my thoughts

[Guest Anonymous]

Aurora *hugs to you hon*

[midori115]

you and Lily are in my prayers.

[xavierandrea]

Big hugs being sent to you.

[Carolk9s]

My deepest condolences to you Aroura. Whatever demons tortured Lily in this world will no longer bother her at the bridge. She knew you loved her, she will be waiting for you in the afterlife. RIP Lily, until you are once again with the one who loved you more than anything.

[Queen Bitch]

I'm so sorry Aurora, my thoughts are with you.

[Aroura]

I almost couldn't go through with it. As I was holding her head still and the needle was going in, she was looking into my eyes, as if to say mummy, whats going on? I just wanted to yell "STOP!" but it was to late as she flopped to her side on the table. It was over in seconds, I can't change my mind now, I'm never getting my girl back. People keep saying it was for the best, but I feel terrible now, how could I take my baby girls life?

I feel like I've just committed the worst crime on earth - taking the life of one who looked up to me and loved me and trusted me to always be there for her, as she was for me :cry: :cry: :cry:

[mouseatthebusstop]

Aroura STOP beating your-self up. She is at peace now, :lilangel:

[courtnek]

Aurora, hon, think of it this way. If she was in pain, dying, would you have let her go then? willingly? in this situation, unfortunately, she may have hurt someone. badly. And she would have been put down, but not with you by her side at the last minutes. As hard as it was, you made the responsible choice, which we HAVE to do always. It wasnt her fault she was this way. But she was, and it could not be corrected. The guilt would have been worse had she mauled or killed a child. There is a reason for things like this happening, I honestly believe that. You just dont know what that reason is yet. In time, it will make itself known to you. You may not understand the "why's" of any of this, until then. But know it will come.

And know that she will always be there, in your heart and soul, forever.
She's not gone, just in a different place now. A better place, where there
is no fear, no anger, no pain. She is in your soul, and at peace.

Your candles burned all day. Neither of them went out until I blew them out.

:angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:

[marion]

:cry: :cry: :cry:

:angel: RIP Lily :angel:

You did what was for the best, never forget that (((hugs))).

[izzy]

No Aurora, you're such a great dog owner, you know you did the best for Lily and for you, all my respect is for you.

Rest in peace Lily.

[Aroura]

Thank you all so much. I just wish there was something more I could have done, maybe a miracle. I know it was the best option - over her mauling someones child and being thrown in a pen and put to sleep that way - but I still feel so terrible. I miss her so much, its not the same not having her around the house. And I feel bad doing that to Montie too, Montie loved Lily, he misses her so much already, and has been smooching up to me all morning, and coming in and out of the house looking for his buddy. He doesn't understand all of this, he just wants his best mate back.

I don't see any reason that this could happen for either, why have a perfectly stunning, healthy, loved dog (I'd like to think of her as a human though) go through the terrers of turning out this way? What could be the reason for that? Its bad enough that my brother is schizzophrenic, he has just been institutionalised for five days for beating up a counsiler and throwing him out of the house. If he was a dog he'd be put to sleep. Why do animals/people turn out this way? I beleive its a cruel world, where well meaning people/animals get neurological problems for no reason :cry:

[Guest Anonymous]

(((((((((HUGS))))))))))

I really can't say anymore than everyone here, but know that Lily is waiting at Rainbow Bridge for you all happy and playfull.

[behle]

Aurora,

I am deeply saddened by your loss, and I respect your difficult decision.

Hugs from Michigan.