My majestic Eva who saved my life

[Guest Anonymous]

she and I were like peas and carrots. We spent an entire year together doing everything. She was bilaterally deaf. She saw the world through my hands. I had her in many obeidence classes, dog parks every day, took her to grocery stores, dept. stores, we were regulars at fleas markets, she accompanied me to dr. apointments. She was my best friend, never hurt me, got me healthy as we spent4 hours every day rollarblading or rafting and swimming in lakes. I am not lying when I say Eva was so gorgeous people ran out of restaurants to ask me what kind of a dog she was. She had a champions skip in her stride and a smile of content on her face. she would potty on cue. she was the most well behaved smart dog knowing over 200 different signs.On her 1 year old birthday i commented to my husband how Eva seemed to of gained 15 pounds in the past week. she was over 90lbs and still growing. I am now able to explain and understand Eva's behavior but she bit my husbands 13 year old daughter. and then stared at her. She (thank God) didn't shake when she was biting as her massive jaws could have taken a hand off. She was actually tender and soft but as she started becoming her own self in her maturing she had difficulty figuring out her pack order. Every afternoon i gave Eva a real bone. The bite i believe was a kid telling another kid " Hey when Mom passes out the bones, I GET THE BIGGEST ONE GOT IT! The bite sent my step daughter to the hospital where fear of this rare breed and misunderstanding of deaf dogs lead to a court order by my husbands Ex wife that the dog would be destroyed and i would be sentanced and put in jail for child abuse. Before I dedicated that year to Eva I worked as a full time cardiac and Icu RN. My hands did work of healing and kindness. Then when i took Eva in to be euthanized i hated my hands and still have nightmares about our last eye contact. My husband had her cremated so i could have and spread her ashes. I had nightmares and would burst out into tears in grocery stores with this image of my baby and her pink flesh being burned. Its been nearly 4 months and I continue to grieve for her. I miss her so terribly bad. I loved her so much, she had saved my life when i no longer wanted to live and i had taken hers. My husbands family was mad at me for over 3 months, and still are. I finally told them it wasn't me who bit the 13 year old child. I had so much pain and remorse over the situation I couldn't bear another day. Now, my husband forbids me to ever get another Dogo again. This was a dog I studied for 15 years, my passion i looked forward to pursuing when i had raised my daughter, i had my dream of owning and showing this breed. I have been tolld both his and mine parents would dis-own me from the family. My husband says He will never let me get another Dogo. Evennn though Eva was 6 months old when he came into our world. I know this is terrible but if my husband thinks i ever want to see his daughter again, just like this dog breed, i don't. Funny thing is he had estranged his relationship with his daughter and ittook me 6 months to begin to get him and his daughter back to visitation...then eva bit...then i was going to jail and a horrible person. I truly believe my dog was handicapped and her hearing made it impossible to assess situaations correctly. I am interested in what others have to say about my husbands demand of I will never own another Dogo. and my response, you can not take my dreams from me. I will get and want another Dogo but one that can hear.
any comments? my marriage is falling apart over this and yet i remain firm in my thoughts and dreams of another dogo. thanks to eva for the best year of my life. I know you are with me as i see you sometimes. Don't worry I am not mad and I will be with you again-just like the good old days![/i]

[mouseatthebusstop]

I can understand why you are so angery-- hopefully in time you will be able to get another dog--what breed was Eva? Don't blame yourself for what has happened. You did not write the court order. Was the X just trying to get at you. There are a lot of questions around what has happened-- Four months is early days give yourself more time-- Plant a tree of bush in your garden as a memoral to Eve. Whenever you need us we are here for you

[Guest Anonymous]

i agree it wasnt your fault. Maybe the dog meant it in a different way then your family thought. Your husband shouldnt blame the breed.

[ESSlover]

I know u posted awhile ago, but i just read this and it is heartbreaking. IMO, if i marry a guy who doesnt like my dogs, or doesnt like dogs in general, i'd never stay with him. You dont like my dogs, u dont like me. but thats just my opinion. what have you decided? how are things goin?

[CincoandDahlilasgirl]

Ur husband can't keep u from living ur dream. I'm not saying he don't love u but if he realy did he'd at least try and understand why u want to get another dog somewhere in the near or not so near future.